Friday, May 5, 2017

My thoughts today: Fear and Healthcare

Everyday we're surrounded by all kinds of news and all kinds of energy.  In this day of technology, news can travel LIVE while it's happening to millions of people.  It can spread viral within just a few moments.  It's fascinating and it's frightening and it's amazing and it's draining!  It can be for good and it can be damaging, sometimes all at the same time.  Today's news is no different.

One of the hottest topics in today's news is American Health Care.  As the new plan is being rolled out, panic and fear have erupted.  It's hard to understand how such a beautiful country with such amazing people could have such a difficult time coming to some sort of agreement on something we ALL need, but here we are.  I know that what "could" happen puts a lot of fear in a lot of people.  But I'd like to also offer you a different perspective.



What if you trusted, that despite how things look right now, everything was going to be okay?

What if you believed, that most of the things you've worried about in your life, never came true, so there's no use in worrying?  (That is the truth anyway, right?)

What if you understood, that no matter what the government does at this point, you could still make a positive impact in your life and other's lives?

What if you knew, without any doubt, that you are loved, and supported, and will have everything you need to live the life you were meant to live?

What if you dropped the doubt, worry, and fear?  What if you refused to let yourself feel like a victim, but instead trusted, there will be a way for you to thrive?  For all of us to thrive?


Is this radical thinking for you, or can you feel the high vibration in those questions?



When I read the news today, that a bill had been passed through the House that basically erased the safeguard that President Obama included in the AHCA about pre-existing conditions, I felt sick to my stomach.  This would include SO many people, including many I know and love, and also myself. What would it mean if this passes?  What would our future healthcare coverage look like?  What if I get sick again and can't afford care?  What if everything falls to sh*t and we all get terrible, life threatening illnesses and no one's there to help us and we die?

The sad truth of this is, this can and does happen to some people and that's difficult to comprehend. But this here, my jumping from one thought about healthcare to suddenly everybody's dying and it's all because of our healthcare system, is my fear talking. I don't really believe that's true.  I think we're going to do our best to take care of each other.  I have faith that all of this attention, interest, and activation means something.  I believe we're headed toward greater awakening and connection.  But it's a process, with a lot of scary headlines.  

Do you see the fear all this "what if" stuff generates?  This is using my imagination to think of a bunch of scary scenarios, so I can panic NOW, even though I'm healthy and nothing is happening to me...except for in my head!


First of all, I'm not sick, so why am I projecting being sick by worrying about it?  Do you know what that does?  It manifests sickness.

Secondly, the truth is, my insurance has sucked for several years now, WAY before Obamacare came into play. My insurance, like many other Americans, has increasingly become more expensive, with less coverage.  Before Obamacare, we bought our own insurance because we are self employed.  Our insurance was expensive, covered mainly the basic well visit stuff, and we had a huge deductible, God forbid anything serious should happen!  So when something serious DID happen, like when my husband found himself completely vulnerable, in the hospital, with a mystery infection, we learned just what it was like to have that kind of deductible.

I remember the day so clearly, when he called me to tell me the dr. cleared him to come home.  That they still didn't know what it was, but at least he's getting better.  I was so relieved!  I had been so scared!  So many thoughts go through your mind when your loved one is sick and nobody knows what it is or how to help.  I flew to the hospital, excited for him to come home!  But from the time we hung up, to the time I got there, his whole mood had changed.  He didn't seem happy and relieved anymore, he seemed devastated.  I braced myself when I asked him what was wrong and he showed me the bill...that the billing department just gave him...while he was STILL in his hospital gown and before he was even out of his f*ing bed!!!

***Here's your $12,000.00 bill.  How do you plan to pay for this?  Cash, check, or charge?

Are you f*in kidding me???  No, sadly I'm not!  Seriously!  It was unbelievable!

The next three years were years of infections on and off.  It was three years of changing to a new plan every year, because once we did use Obamacare, the plans we chose were only available for one year and we would get notified that we had to pick something else because this insurance would no longer be available the following year.  So that meant, new insurance, new plans, and often, new doctors, too.  Overall, they were still pretty much the same as it was before AHCA except it was a little harder to find drs. that took our insurance!  The main difference was, it "appeared" that we were getting a discount, even though with the "discount" our cost, coverage, and deductibles were about the same as it was back when we purchased our own insurance.  Kind of like a store coupon.  They up their prices, then give you a 20% coupon, so you feel like you're getting a better deal!  However, knowing we weren't going to be denied because of a pre-existing condition, was comforting.

Here is my point in telling you all of this.  If you're currently worried or in panic mode, slow down a moment, take some deep breaths, and get yourself together.  Let the fear subside a moment.  Stand in the truth of where we are now.  If you are compelled to make calls, make some calls.  If you are compelled to write, write.  If you are compelled to take better proactive care of yourself, take better care of yourself!  Do you know how much healing takes place in the world when we begin to heal ourselves?  It's truly trans-formative and healing not just for the individual, but for the whole collective consciousness.

Action feels better than sitting in the fear and feeling powerless.  Let me also remind you, despite what some people may say about the world "these days" and how terrible it is and how there's so much bad stuff going on, this is NOT new!  There have been awesome things and terrible things since the beginning of time!  Have some of the terrible things changed?  Yes.  Now we have modern day horrors instead of a stadium full of people watching someone get mauled by lions!  (YIKES!!)

Don't fool yourself into thinking at one time everything was great but now it's not and never will be again!  That's lies!  In every moment of everyday there is something to be happy about and thankful for!  We have to look for it though, and if we're too busy jumping on Facebook, or watching the news, or checking out Twitter to see how other people are getting into an uproar, we start to vibe in that space too!  That is NOT being Proactive and using your energy wisely.  That is draining you and feeding fuel to the fear fire!!!



What if, instead of worrying we:

Smiled, looked people in the eyes, and said hello?

Asked a stranger or acquaintance how they're doing and actually stopped to listen?

Reached out to someone who looked like they needed a hand, even if we didn't know if they wanted or needed our help?

Stopped judging one another so much and started realizing the truth which is,
We are ALL Connected!

Let more love into our life?  Let in more ease and flow?  Took deeper breaths?

S-L-O-W-E-D down a minute, so we can just be?

Lived as though we are always loved and supported?  Because WE ARE!!!!

Let ourselves be more LOVING to one another, even those that have different opinions than ours!?!


I could feel like a victim today, but how would that help?  I could let fear get in my head today, but what is that solving?  I could keep feeding the beast, but why would I do that when I know that Peace is where God lives?  That's where I want to be!  What about you?



Just some thoughts!  I hope you can find some peace in your day today!  It's waiting for you...LOOK for it!!!!




Love to You!

~Kristie


Saturday, April 29, 2017

Inspired by Ease and Enough

Hello Friends!  It's been a while!  How are you?  I've been doing a little of this and a little bit of that and the next thing I knew, almost another year had already flown by!  So cliche', but how does it all go by so fast?!

Did you know this blog is coming up on it's 6th birthday?  I can't believe it!  So much has happened in six years.  In some ways, I can access the exact feeling of  awesomeness I felt when I first started writing.  How exciting it was and how hopeful I was about expressing myself in this way.  It feels like just a few months ago.

From another perspective, I've been up and down the long side of the mountain.  Through the fire, fear, wind, and storms.  Through some of my darkest times and through some of the most amazing blissful times of life perfection, that it makes me cry!  God, how absolutely beautiful life can be! That makes it feel like at least 10 years worth of stuff, rather than six!  The last six years have been a learning experience for sure and it has taken lots of energy to be where I am today.  So much energy, that I was tired for a long time, and now, after lots of intentional work, my energy flow is coming back. I'm feeling like a new and improved me!  And now, I'm ready to write again! Yay!

This week I've been really intentional about allowing more ease into my life.  I must note, because I want to be really open with you, there were still things that were hard, things that didn't go right, and things I wish I would've handled differently.  BUT, because I was focused on EASE, it made all of those things easier to go through.  And I'm so inspired!

I have been working on growing my coaching business and I've been meditating more.  Whenever I do my "work" I have to be really intentional about keeping my left brain, analytic, perfection seeking, manic boss lady in good balance with my right brain, dreamy creative, happy go lucky, free spirit, dancing warrior self!  Haha!  Either side getting too much attention usually leads me into a space where I'm feeling off.  Either not getting enough done, or feeling too drained, or too serious, or too wishy washy, or too unfocused, or too guarded, or too burdened, or too overwhelmed, or too... well, you get the picture!  

What I really want is ENOUGH.  Enough Freedom. Enough Energy.  Enough Focus. Enough Peace.  Enough Love. Enough Intention. Enough Rest. Enough Purpose. Enough Flow.  Enough Movement.  Enough Inspiration. Enough Joy. Enough Food.  Enough Treats.  Enough God.  Enough Alignment. Enough Work. Enough Play. Enough Laughs.  Enough Silliness. Enough Gentleness. Enough Strength.  Enough Bad-Assery.  Enough.  Just Enough.

In my experience, more isn't always better. Sometimes more is just... more.  I don't want more, just for the sake of more.  I want QUALITY of Life.  I'm practicing living The Art of Enough and learning what this means for me, which so far feels wonderful, but I realize how often I want to turn to more and how much our culture promotes it.

This is why I've been turning to my Spirit and Energy practices like meditation, prayer, Reiki, EFT/Tapping, ritual, and energy clearing.  I need God in my life at all times and these practices help me stay tuned in and aligned.  Without these practices, I feel anxious and lost, so it's imperative that they are a rich part of my life which is why I need to carve out time to practice them daily.  If you don't carve out the time, you don't get it done!  I've also decided to teach these practices to others.  When I'm clear, it's much easier for me to go with the flow AND get the right things done at the right time!

If you want to do great things in your life AND you want to enjoy it too, you have to prioritize and understand that not everything is important at the same time.  We tend to give a lot of attention to things that are not that important instead of focusing on our main priorities and staying aligned with them.  This zaps up a LOT of our precious energy and when we learn to practice energy raising activities and exercises and let go of the things that drain us, we feel SO MUCH better!


One of the things that drains us is arguing with ourselves about getting stuff done.  Do you ever do this?  The longer we drag our feet, procrastinate, create a story in our minds about why it's unfair that we have to do what we have to do, or how somebody has it better/easier than us, or how what we have to do sucks and we don't like it, or how we know that we must do this in order to live a life we really love, but it seems too hard and scary and vulnerable and personal to just do it, and and on and on!  We're just creating a bigger resistance within ourselves that gets harder and harder to penetrate with each resistant thought!

What if you stopped arguing, let all those resistant thoughts go and just DO the things you know you must do?  Shut the mouth in your head and just do it!  Lol!  Take the plunge!  Dive In!  Go For It!

Get those dishes done!  Write that paper!  Get up early and exercise!  Call your Mom!  Apologize! Go back to school!  Apply for that job!  Go to that workshop!  Buy it!  Let it Go!  Break up!  Make up! Begin the tough conversation!  Forgive!  Start that business!  Put yourself out there!  Make that video!  Say Yes!  Say No!  Go for that Dream!  Accept that offer!  Be the Co-Creator that you were meant to be and let yourself live a Freakin Amazing Life!!!!

It's all up to you to Just Do It and BE It!!!  And Always Remember:





Until later...

Love to You!
Kristie


Saturday, August 13, 2016

Day 60: So Much Going On!!!

August 13, 2016

Hey Friends!  Happy Saturday!  Today I have SO MUCH going on in my head that I really need to "brain dump" some stuff and just talk to you about it!  I've even been having a hard time sleeping lately and maybe you noticed some random Facebook posts at 2:30 am!  Haha! Mostly it's because I'm thinking about so many exciting things on the horizon, but there's also some fears and anxieties that I'm working through.  I must say, I'm doing a pretty good job at navigating through the muck this time, and definitely my fears are quickly being replaced with simply standing in the truth and walking through it, while ignoring the taunts and teases of my fears.  Now that I've created some space between my thoughts, my body easily senses fear and as soon as I realize I'm feeling it, I take some deep breaths and redirect my thoughts.  It's taken some practice but I'm telling you, it totally works!

So anyway, I have been writing now for 60 days, well, with the exception of a few days grouped together here and there, but whatevs!  I've been writing again and I'm learning so much!  I can see patterns in myself and how I start to self sabotage right before a big break through.  Where I used to always raise the bar higher just before I reached a goal, now I stop making my goal a priority and let everything and everyone else come first.  OR the other lovely thing I have found myself doing is making sound decisions based on my current energy level and the current "To Do" items in cue but then later I want to criticize myself and act like I didn't do enough...again!

SAY WHAT????  What's that all about?  I may never know all the reasons WHY I do this, but the great thing about all of it is that this time, I'm writing about it and I'm being more accountable to myself through you (thanks for your help btw!) and since I can see it, I know that I just have to change the way I normally go through it.  And I am!  Big Time! Easy Peasy, Right?  ;)


So here's a little confession. There's this part of me, I think of her as the "Mean Girl,"  and she wants to kick my ass for not staying committed to all my workouts over the last two weeks.  She wants to call me names like lazy and fat. She wants to tell me I'm not trying hard enough and I'm making excuses and if I keep this up, my dreams will never come true.  She wants to shame me into working more, working harder, and feeling guilty all the time about well, pretty much everything. She is a super high maintenance perfectionist and quite frankly, she's completely exhausting! She is never ever satisfied!  She puts down my decision making, my parenting, my house keeping skills, my cooking, my time management skills, my body, how I wife, what kind of friend I am...it seriously goes on and on with the judgement...if I let it, that is!  This mean girl is so desperately insecure and seeking approval that she doesn't even realize, approval is an inside job!  But I know!





This girl may still pop up for me at times, but the difference is, I keep her in her place.  I let her remind me of my drive and the reasons WHY I want to work hard but now I know better.

Now I tell her:

"Shut the EFF UP!!!"  **Note: This is an important first step!**

"I'm not lazy! I'm not fat!  I'm strong!  I'm worthy!  I can do great things, but not ALL things, at least not all at the same time! I'm moving forward!  I know what I want!  I know who I AM!.  I have priorities! I have boundaries! I LOVE MYSELF!!! I'm beautiful!  I'm taking great care of myself, my well being, and my body! I know taking care of myself and my body doesn't mean pushing all the time! Sometimes it means gentle care.  More rest.  More water.  More healthy foods.  More praise. More love.  More appreciation. More softness.  More kindness. More FLOW.  More EASE.  More LOVE.  I don't have to listen to you anymore!  I don't agree with you! You SUCK anyways!!!!"


Gosh that feels good to type it all out here!!!  Hahaha!


It makes it even more real for me because you know what?  I'm tired of being afraid.  I'm tired of holding back.  I'm going to be Forty Fricken Three in 4 days, you guys!  Forty Freakin Three!!!!!  It's not that I feel that's old, I really don't, but at the same time, I have learned a thing or two in my time because I have been through some sh*t in 43 years!

The time is NOW to break through barriers and make things happen!  Or I should say, ALLOW them in co-creation!  Ha!  I may be able to "make" some things happen but there are forces beyond my control that I need to acknowledge and know that "my way" may not be the way it's meant to be.  So it's then that I need to surrender and let things flow as they will.  I know that this seems so confusing sometimes because honestly, sometimes it does to me too, but really all it means is that we do what we can and the rest is up to God/The Universe.

So what is the truth that I need to hold onto here about the last couple weeks?  Did I "fail" as some would call it?  Well, here's what happened:

1. I got bored of my routine.  I needed to mix things up a bit to keep it exciting!
2. I was tired and my feet and left hamstring were really sore, like, borderline injury sore.
3. We had company and I made enjoying them and being with them a priority.
4. I  drank Shakeology and lots of water.  I ate much cleaner with a few exceptions.
5. I did two workouts, went for 2 bike rides and a walk.
6. I cleaned out everyone's closet, and got rid of 2 bags of garbage and 2 bags went to Goodwill.
7. I went back to school shopping for like, 3 days straight!
8. I spent quality time filling my (margarita, wine, beer, and positive energy) cup by seeing "Bad Moms" with some of my mom friends!

So when I reflect on my last two weeks, I really see no reason to shame myself.  I don't see failure at all.  In fact, I feel pretty good about all the stuff I got done!  I'm also pretty proud of myself for resting more when I needed it.  I used to be really hard on myself when I needed to rest (see Mean Girl comments above for a reminder!) but now I just know I need it and accept it.  There's no reason to shame it or judge it!  I just took a break!  Geesh!  No big deal!  I think a lot of people are hard on themselves and need to work on this one!  Do YOU?

Perspective is everything!  I can either use my thoughts and words to destroy my confidence and make me feel like I'm never going to be good enough, OR I can use them to build myself up and give me the strength and courage I need to create a life I love!  At the very least, I can use them to make a shift and feel better in the moment!  (Feeling better in the moment is more important than we realize!) The more I practice, the better I get, and the easier it becomes.  More and more I'm living as my higher self and as I keep learning and growing, and practicing and becoming, I am more connected to everything.  Including You!  I love that, don't you?

Speaking of perspective, here's a little perspective for you.  Here is a picture of me when I finished Turbo Fire 3 years ago.  I was just about to turn 40.  I had lost 7 pounds and weighed in at 130. Normally my goal weight would be 120-125 but I was happy with my muscle tone so the weight wasn't that important to me.  I don't know how many inches I lost but I was wearing a 4/6 and I normally wear a 6.  I was feeling strong, healthy, and good about myself for what I had accomplished.







Here is a picture of me yesterday.  After getting in 6 solid weeks of Turbo Fire and PiYo and then the last two weeks, well, you already know that story!  





When I started I weighed 151 and I felt really bad about that because I was so surprised I gained that much weight.  I don't know what I weigh right now but it's probably around 147 because that's what it was when I weighed myself last.  I haven't wanted to weigh again and risk feeling discouraged since the scale still has a little bit of a grip on me, so I keep weighing to a minimum.  But this is why perspective, PICTURES, and self talk are so important!  If I focused on the numbers only, I would not be able to see what I really look like, which to me, is healthy!  I may not be as lean as I was and I can see that my shorts look a little tighter (and they are) but so what?!?!  I don't look that much different!  Now that I'm more consistent again, I'm getting my tone back and I'm getting stronger.  I feel more energetic and more confident!  Doesn't that count WAY MORE than what I weigh?  I'm now wearing a 6/8, but so what?  That's not a bad thing!  It's only bad if I think it is!

Here's a side by side comparison:




My goals are different now.  I don't even know if I have a weight goal anymore.  I just want to feel my best and keep doing what makes me feel that way.  I know that reaching a certain goal weight is a fleeting feeling anyway.  Been there!  Done that!  Continuously doing things daily to take good care of yourself is what makes a person healthy and happy.  That's my goal for myself and it's also what I help people with as a coach. Most importantly, I want to teach this and model this for my sweet girls! We all deserve to learn that we are so much more than our negative thoughts, how much we weigh, or what our body looks like!  Don't you agree?

So this post has had a mind of it's own and I know I may have been a little around the block and all over the place with it, but you forgive me for not being perfect, right?   Even though I didn't start out having any plans for telling you how much I weigh (Eek!  I'm still kind of shocked that I did that!), or for telling everyone such personal thoughts and insecurities, I'm going to hit "publish" anyway.  I'm just trying to be me and I have to answer that call however it comes.  I know that by sharing my story some may judge me or think differently or maybe even less of me, but some may learn from me. Some may see themselves in me. Some may relate and connect and feel something stirring inside of them. Some may be inspired to work through some of their own stuff and become who they are really meant to be. Some may finally realize how beautiful they are, how strong they are, and how worthy they are of living a happy, healthy, fantastic life!

Maybe that someone is You???!!!

That is the power of truth.  That is the power of connection. That is the power of Just BEing!




Thanks for being here!  Until next time...

Love to You!
~Kristie



Monday, August 5, 2013

12 Days til 40 ~ Living the Healthy Life!

So the countdown is on!  I have 12 more days in my 30's!  What the????  How in the world did it go so fast?  I used to think 40 was old.  Hell, I used to think 30 was old, 24 was old!  So now, am I old?  I don't feel like it!!  In fact, I feel like I'm just getting started!  Yesterday I shared my post from last year, 39 Things I've Learned in 39 Years and How They Help Me Live My Best Life Now on my facebook page and re-reading it has made me reflect on the past year, and how my life has changed since becoming a mom.  

I've been reminiscing about everything that I've done and been through; the past 7 years and my journey through pregnancies and being a mom, my journey as a teacher, consultant, blogger, stay at home mom, work from home mom, life coach, and fitness coach, my experiences as a wife, a friend, a daughter, and moving from one side of the country to another, and of course, my health and fitness journey through the years. There are so many things that I've learned and I'm excited to share with you!

My goal over the next two weeks is to post 
something every day about what I've learned in the past, what I'm doing and learning each day, and what life really is like when you're stepping into your authentic self and creating the kind of life you dream of!  My hope is to inspire you to continue to take your own steps and make your dreams come true!! 






So today I wanted to start with what life was like about a year ago.  We were enjoying our summer and I was preparing myself and Allison for kindergarten.  I was kind of nervous but pretty sure we were going to have a great year AND I was beginning to do more things for myself, outside of being a mom.

When I became I mom, I dedicated myself to the role.  I absolutely ADORE babies and children and ALWAYS knew that when I got to be a mom, it would be one of the most perfect, beautiful, and wonderful things that I would ever do.  And it has been!  I have been blessed beyond measure with two healthy, loving, creative, smart, funny, awesome little girls!  I LOVE being a mom, just like I knew I would.  I appreciate that I've been able to stay home with them and be there for them just like I always wanted.  That being said, I could also feel this deep calling that it was time to make a shift and do something for me!  

I was at my parent's one day and noticed an ad on the back of the "Star" magazine that comes in the Sunday paper.  It said, "BE our Cover Model!  Seeking San Antonio women with a passion for living a healthy, balanced life!"  I was like, that's me!  The contest was for a new local magazine called Healthy Life Body*Mind*Spirit.  





I had never entered a contest like this before and I was kind of surprised how bad I wanted it!  Me??  A cover model?  Where did this come from?  I was excited to represent myself as a "fit mom" and thought about how I wanted to inspire other women, especially those that are constantly caring for others, to take care of themselves too.  I brought the Star home and got right to work on my essay.  It flowed easily and I felt good about it. They also wanted a picture of you showing your healthy lifestyle.  I sent them this one:





A few weeks later I received an email saying I was chosen as one of the finalists!  WOOHOO!!!!  I was so excited!  I had to go downtown for a test shoot for final selection.  Oh...my...gosh!  It was one of the coolest things I've ever done!  I hadn't had a photo shoot since my wedding and it was so much fun getting all prettied up and taking pics.  It was so much fun doing something for me and it inspired me to dream bigger.  

I didn't hear anything for a while and then found out in September that they were going to change the format a little.  Instead of it being a magazine, it was going to be a section in the newspaper.  Time went by and I got busy.  Kindergarten was a lot busier than I anticipated and we needed some adjustment time.  I never forgot about the contest but I figured if it was meant to be, it would happen.  In November, (maybe early December?) I got a call from the San Antonio Express News...I was chosen to be the January Cover Model!!!  AHHHHH!!!!  I was so excited!    This meant I did NOT overindulge over the holidays and I stayed on track with my exercise!  Yay me!  ;)

It was an AMAZING experience!  I felt like a princess!  Everyone was so kind and made me feel so comfortable!  I was introduced as "Kristie, our cover model" and I could NOT stop smiling!  I have never had anyone pick out a wardrobe for me and it was interesting to see what they picked!  I had ladies helping me with my make-up and jewelry.  It was so much fun!  I felt so honored and so happy!  For just a few hours, I felt a million miles away from juggling meals, dishes, laundry, and homework.  From having sticky hands squeeze my legs and boogers being wiped on my shirt.  It was an awesome contrast and because I had some special time to make things happen for myself, when I came home, I appreciated the boogers and tears and chocolate kisses that much more!  It's all about the balance, right?!  

Here is the cover:  



This is what the section with the article looked like:

Not very good quality!  I need to take a better pic!


Here are some more pics from that day:







Remember when I did that 30 Day Video Challenge?  
This is the video where I talk about my Cover Model experience!  



Talk to you tomorrow!  

Love to You!
~Kristie


Sunday, May 26, 2013

Conversations with God in the Shower and How I'm Answering the Call!

My whole life I wanted to become a teacher.  If you've been reading along with me, or you've checked out my "about me" page, you already know this.  It was just something I knew I would become.

When I became a public school teacher, I felt at home.  I was driven to succeed.  I would do anything I could to do my best.  I loved my students like they were my own!  I was passionate about it!  I put my all into it.  It was awesome!

About six years into teaching, I could no longer ignore the fact that I felt sick a lot of the time.  I would get headaches most days of the week.  I would get a cold or cough that would linger for weeks on end.  When it would finally go away, I'd have a healthy week or two and then I'd get sick again.  I felt exhausted.  I would come home and sit down and feel like I couldn't move.  I was bloated all the time.  I was feeling anxious, tense, and stressed.

I remember this one Friday, I felt especially stressed.  I had a million things going on.  Work was getting so stressful, morale was low.  People were feeling strained with all of the changes going on in the system;  new tests and testing procedures, budget cuts, difficulties with the children, difficulty with the lack of support from parents, tension between the staff and administration.  It was getting to be too much!  I felt completely overwhelmed with negativity!

I hopped in the shower to wash the week away.  I started thinking about everything and had a really scary realization, I wasn't happy anymore.  But how could that BE?  I love my kids!  I love teaching!  I  panicked.  What the hell am I going to do now?  I've always wanted this!  This was always my dream!  How could it not be working anymore?   Why doesn't it feel good anymore?  I am NO QUITTER!!!!   But this can't be what my life feels like forever!  I don't even have my own kids yet!  How am I going to keep this up and make my other dreams come true too?

I asked God, what am I doing?   Is this the way I'm supposed to feel for the rest of my life?  Why doesn't it feel right anymore?  What am I supposed to be doing?  Please, please help me.  I started sobbing.

I felt the rush of everything coming out of me.  I felt the release.  I felt the surrender.  I let it all come out through my tears.  I cried for a while and kept asking, what am I gonna do?  What am I supposed to do?

Suddenly a thought popped into my head.  You need to talk to people about God.  You need to tell people about God.  I was so confused.  I thought, what???  Trust me, I'm no nun!  I'm not the type to quote the bible!  I don't really want to teach in a Catholic school! (because I heard they get paid less)  How am I supposed to be doing that?  Talking about God?  What does that mean?

I still think it's funny that my first thought was "nun."  I guess growing up Catholic, I associated a nun with a woman who has devoted her life to talking about God.  And for some reason, that is what I feel like my message was.  That not only would I just devote an hour a week at church to God, but that I was somehow supposed to devote my daily living to God and to share that with others.  I still had no idea what this meant for me and what I was supposed to do next.

Things didn't appear to change drastically in the moment, but I do recognize this as a giant shift in my life.  I began to see myself more as a leader and one who wanted to create change.  I finished my master's degree and took a job as a teacher consultant.  It was a great fit for two years and then once again, it was time for a change.  I had my first daughter, quit my job, and stayed home to care for my new baby.  This is when I really got to know God.

Having a baby helped me to understand the gift of life.  Slowing down my life to care for her, be with her, and watch her develop, was such a great joy!  For the first time EVER I finally understood what living in the moment really meant.  And all that stuff about NOW is all we ever really have?  I finally got it!  I didn't always "get it" and I still don't live like this always, but I was able to slow down enough to feel it and be conscious of it several times throughout the day.  I felt like I was finally really living my life!  I started reading more about how to create the kind of life I really wanted and develop myself so I could actually do it!

At the same time, things were extremely difficult!  Remember how I quit my job?  Ya, well that was spontaneous and even though it was something I always wanted, we weren't prepared to live on one income.  In fact, we were grossly under-prepared.  I used to smile on the outside but cringe on the inside when people would say, "Oh, you're SO LUCKY you get to do that!  We could NEVER do it because we couldn't afford it!"  I wondered what they would think of us if they knew the behind the scenes story.  We're crazy?  Stupid?  Making a mistake?  SUPER CRAZY??  Need counseling???  I don't know, but what I do know is, it was FAITH that got us through it and it is still FAITH that gets us through!!

Since I quit my job 6 years ago, I've tried out many things.  I've done contractual work as a consultant.  I've been a mystery shopper.  I tried being a jewelry maker.  I tried out photography.  I've been a skin care/cosmetics demonstrator.  I thought about becoming a personal trainer or a group fitness instructor.  I've thought about becoming a yoga instructor.

Nothing ever felt quite right until I did my first retreat for women.  Since I had been a consultant and provided workshops for teachers, I felt like having a retreat was an easy transition.  It was called "Live a Life You Love" and it was magical!  Here I got to gather women together and remind them to value themselves, take good care of themselves, dream, love, have faith, and be happy!  It was my first experience talking to people about God and the power of creating the life you really want!  It felt so right!  I came home that day and was flying!  In fact, I was flying for about a week afterwards!  I felt the power of empowering and inspiring others!  I knew I wanted more!

Since then, I had another baby, moved across the country, moved into my dream home, and enjoy good health!  I started this blog, ran a half-marathon, and started my own coaching business called BE. Inspired Coaching.  After immersing myself in self development since my pregnancy with my first daughter, being a life coach gives me the opportunity to share with others all that I've learned over the years.  I get to talk about God, having a higher purpose, following your heart, listening to your intuition, rising to the challenge, giving yourself a break, and knowing that you are ALWAYS loved and NEVER alone!   I get to help myself and others get organized, make a flexible plan, accomplish their goals and  HAVE FUN AND ENJOY THEIR LIVES!  I get to live a healthy life that feels good to me and encourage others to live a healthy, inspired life!



As a coach, I wanted to do something to get more people involved and decided to do an exercise challenge this past April.  Through this challenge, not only did I connect with some awesome people who saw real results in just 30 days, but I also found a piece that was missing from my coaching...health and fitness.  I want to bring inspired spiritual messages to people AND I also know that when your body is healthy, strong and fit, you can do amazing things!  I know that when I make it through a physical challenge like teaching myself how to run long distances, I feel a sense of accomplishment that is impossible to measure!  It's such an amazing feeling!  When you learn you can do more than you thought, you want to keep doing more!  The trick is to learn what the "right" things are for you!  This is why becoming a Beachbody coach felt like exactly the right fit!  Now I get to inspire people to be their best selves; body, mind, and spirit!  I get to teach.  I get to listen.  I get to support.  I get to help people make their dreams come true and do things they never thought possible!  I'm aligned with people who are positive and want to do great things in their lives!  Now that IS lucky!  :)

It took about 9 years after that conversation with God in the shower of trying new things and taking steps along the path, but now that I'm here I feel like I'm home!  This feels right!  This is what I'm supposed to be doing right now!  Is this it, forever and ever, Amen?  No.  I know I want even more!  I know I want to publish a book someday.  I know I want to be a public figure somehow.  I know I want to give back in a BIG way.  I don't know how or when or what this is all gonna look like but one thing I know for sure, I can do it!  I have faith!  I've learned to trust the process.  I believe in my dreams!  I may slip once in a while, but I know the truth.  God is good and our dreams are real.  They are on purpose to remind us there are limitless opportunities!  Listen to your heart and you will know!  And if you ever need any help with this, please let me know!  You know I'd love to help you!  :)

Lots and Lots of Love to You!
~Kristie

P.S. I don't blog as often as I would like but I make regular, daily posts on my facebook page.  Follow me at www.facebook.com/BE.InspiredCoaching.  I'd love to see you there!  :)

P.S.S. Don't miss out!  I will begin the 30 Day BE. Inspired Exercise Challenge on June 1st!  You can sign up here on the sidebar of my blog.  I'm also starting a Beachbody Challenge on June 10th!  Email me at kristie.ignash@gmail.com for more information!