Thursday, January 18, 2018

BEgin Again...

How do you begin again, when so much has happened, and so much has changed, yet you're still the same but you're also, in many ways, so very different?

How do you begin again, when fear grabs you by the feet, and yanks you under, just as you're skipping through the clouds about to touch the sky? 

How do you begin again, when you know in your gut just what to do, but the obstacles seem so great, and so many, and so daunting, and so exhausting? 

How do you begin again, when you're crowded by desperate scenes of everything you don't want, when all you're looking for is a spark of what you do want?

How do you begin again, when you just feel so utterly lost and clueless, yet also so intuitively guided and divinely knowing?

How do you begin again, when time feels like it's slipping away, and you know you can plan it all out to a tee, but that plan could be blow away into obscurity with the slightest of breezes?

How do you begin again, when all you want to do is S.L.O.W. DOWN and LIVE, REALLY LIVE,  and LOVE, and LAUGH and ENJOY but at every turn there is a reminder to plan for, NO, not just plan for, WORRY, about the future?

How do you begin again, when you know you should just trust yourself, and scrap all the negative crap, and just BE yourself, yet you're too afraid that maybe "they" are right and you are being the foolish one?

How do you begin again, when you know you've made some big mistakes, and you're still not sure how to fix them, yet you know you are more than ready to move on from them?

How do you begin again, when the world just feels so heavy, and your head feels like it's about to explode, and nothing is looking like a solution because the problems won't stop running through your mind? 

How do you begin again, when you know you've had enough, so the only choice you have, is to move forward and onward?

The only way to begin again, is to begin.  It's simple.  Just Do It. 

Close your eyes and take some deep breaths.  Know you are not alone.  God is always there for you, helping you, guiding you, walking you through it.  Trust yourself. Trust the Divine in You.  Know things can and will get better.  Remember to take time to JUST BE and while you may need time to rest, never, EVER give up! 

The only way to move through something is by taking it one breath, one step, at a time!

Love to You!

Saturday, April 29, 2017

Inspired by Ease and Enough

Hello Friends!  It's been a while!  How are you?  I've been doing a little of this and a little bit of that and the next thing I knew, almost another year had already flown by!  So cliche', but how does it all go by so fast?!

Did you know this blog is coming up on it's 6th birthday?  I can't believe it!  So much has happened in six years.  In some ways, I can access the exact feeling of  awesomeness I felt when I first started writing.  How exciting it was and how hopeful I was about expressing myself in this way.  It feels like just a few months ago.

From another perspective, I've been up and down the long side of the mountain.  Through the fire, fear, wind, and storms.  Through some of my darkest times and through some of the most amazing blissful times of life perfection, that it makes me cry!  God, how absolutely beautiful life can be! That makes it feel like at least 10 years worth of stuff, rather than six!  The last six years have been a learning experience for sure and it has taken lots of energy to be where I am today.  So much energy, that I was tired for a long time, and now, after lots of intentional work, my energy flow is coming back. I'm feeling like a new and improved me!  And now, I'm ready to write again! Yay!

This week I've been really intentional about allowing more ease into my life.  I must note, because I want to be really open with you, there were still things that were hard, things that didn't go right, and things I wish I would've handled differently.  BUT, because I was focused on EASE, it made all of those things easier to go through.  And I'm so inspired!

I have been working on growing my coaching business and I've been meditating more.  Whenever I do my "work" I have to be really intentional about keeping my left brain, analytic, perfection seeking, manic boss lady in good balance with my right brain, dreamy creative, happy go lucky, free spirit, dancing warrior self!  Haha!  Either side getting too much attention usually leads me into a space where I'm feeling off.  Either not getting enough done, or feeling too drained, or too serious, or too wishy washy, or too unfocused, or too guarded, or too burdened, or too overwhelmed, or too... well, you get the picture!  

What I really want is ENOUGH.  Enough Freedom. Enough Energy.  Enough Focus. Enough Peace.  Enough Love. Enough Intention. Enough Rest. Enough Purpose. Enough Flow.  Enough Movement.  Enough Inspiration. Enough Joy. Enough Food.  Enough Treats.  Enough God.  Enough Alignment. Enough Work. Enough Play. Enough Laughs.  Enough Silliness. Enough Gentleness. Enough Strength.  Enough Bad-Assery.  Enough.  Just Enough.

In my experience, more isn't always better. Sometimes more is just... more.  I don't want more, just for the sake of more.  I want QUALITY of Life.  I'm practicing living The Art of Enough and learning what this means for me, which so far feels wonderful, but I realize how often I want to turn to more and how much our culture promotes it.

This is why I've been turning to my Spirit and Energy practices like meditation, prayer, Reiki, EFT/Tapping, ritual, and energy clearing.  I need God in my life at all times and these practices help me stay tuned in and aligned.  Without these practices, I feel anxious and lost, so it's imperative that they are a rich part of my life which is why I need to carve out time to practice them daily.  If you don't carve out the time, you don't get it done!  I've also decided to teach these practices to others.  When I'm clear, it's much easier for me to go with the flow AND get the right things done at the right time!

If you want to do great things in your life AND you want to enjoy it too, you have to prioritize and understand that not everything is important at the same time.  We tend to give a lot of attention to things that are not that important instead of focusing on our main priorities and staying aligned with them.  This zaps up a LOT of our precious energy and when we learn to practice energy raising activities and exercises and let go of the things that drain us, we feel SO MUCH better!

One of the things that drains us is arguing with ourselves about getting stuff done.  Do you ever do this?  The longer we drag our feet, procrastinate, create a story in our minds about why it's unfair that we have to do what we have to do, or how somebody has it better/easier than us, or how what we have to do sucks and we don't like it, or how we know that we must do this in order to live a life we really love, but it seems too hard and scary and vulnerable and personal to just do it, and and on and on!  We're just creating a bigger resistance within ourselves that gets harder and harder to penetrate with each resistant thought!

What if you stopped arguing, let all those resistant thoughts go and just DO the things you know you must do?  Shut the mouth in your head and just do it!  Lol!  Take the plunge!  Dive In!  Go For It!

Get those dishes done!  Write that paper!  Get up early and exercise!  Call your Mom!  Apologize! Go back to school!  Apply for that job!  Go to that workshop!  Buy it!  Let it Go!  Break up!  Make up! Begin the tough conversation!  Forgive!  Start that business!  Put yourself out there!  Make that video!  Say Yes!  Say No!  Go for that Dream!  Accept that offer!  Be the Co-Creator that you were meant to be and let yourself live a Freakin Amazing Life!!!!

It's all up to you to Just Do It and BE It!!!  And Always Remember:

Until later...

Love to You!

Monday, August 5, 2013

12 Days til 40 ~ Living the Healthy Life!

So the countdown is on!  I have 12 more days in my 30's!  What the????  How in the world did it go so fast?  I used to think 40 was old.  Hell, I used to think 30 was old, 24 was old!  So now, am I old?  I don't feel like it!!  In fact, I feel like I'm just getting started!  Yesterday I shared my post from last year, 39 Things I've Learned in 39 Years and How They Help Me Live My Best Life Now on my facebook page and re-reading it has made me reflect on the past year, and how my life has changed since becoming a mom.  

I've been reminiscing about everything that I've done and been through; the past 7 years and my journey through pregnancies and being a mom, my journey as a teacher, consultant, blogger, stay at home mom, work from home mom, life coach, and fitness coach, my experiences as a wife, a friend, a daughter, and moving from one side of the country to another, and of course, my health and fitness journey through the years. There are so many things that I've learned and I'm excited to share with you!

My goal over the next two weeks is to post 
something every day about what I've learned in the past, what I'm doing and learning each day, and what life really is like when you're stepping into your authentic self and creating the kind of life you dream of!  My hope is to inspire you to continue to take your own steps and make your dreams come true!! 

So today I wanted to start with what life was like about a year ago.  We were enjoying our summer and I was preparing myself and Allison for kindergarten.  I was kind of nervous but pretty sure we were going to have a great year AND I was beginning to do more things for myself, outside of being a mom.

When I became I mom, I dedicated myself to the role.  I absolutely ADORE babies and children and ALWAYS knew that when I got to be a mom, it would be one of the most perfect, beautiful, and wonderful things that I would ever do.  And it has been!  I have been blessed beyond measure with two healthy, loving, creative, smart, funny, awesome little girls!  I LOVE being a mom, just like I knew I would.  I appreciate that I've been able to stay home with them and be there for them just like I always wanted.  That being said, I could also feel this deep calling that it was time to make a shift and do something for me!  

I was at my parent's one day and noticed an ad on the back of the "Star" magazine that comes in the Sunday paper.  It said, "BE our Cover Model!  Seeking San Antonio women with a passion for living a healthy, balanced life!"  I was like, that's me!  The contest was for a new local magazine called Healthy Life Body*Mind*Spirit.  

I had never entered a contest like this before and I was kind of surprised how bad I wanted it!  Me??  A cover model?  Where did this come from?  I was excited to represent myself as a "fit mom" and thought about how I wanted to inspire other women, especially those that are constantly caring for others, to take care of themselves too.  I brought the Star home and got right to work on my essay.  It flowed easily and I felt good about it. They also wanted a picture of you showing your healthy lifestyle.  I sent them this one:

A few weeks later I received an email saying I was chosen as one of the finalists!  WOOHOO!!!!  I was so excited!  I had to go downtown for a test shoot for final selection.!  It was one of the coolest things I've ever done!  I hadn't had a photo shoot since my wedding and it was so much fun getting all prettied up and taking pics.  It was so much fun doing something for me and it inspired me to dream bigger.  

I didn't hear anything for a while and then found out in September that they were going to change the format a little.  Instead of it being a magazine, it was going to be a section in the newspaper.  Time went by and I got busy.  Kindergarten was a lot busier than I anticipated and we needed some adjustment time.  I never forgot about the contest but I figured if it was meant to be, it would happen.  In November, (maybe early December?) I got a call from the San Antonio Express News...I was chosen to be the January Cover Model!!!  AHHHHH!!!!  I was so excited!    This meant I did NOT overindulge over the holidays and I stayed on track with my exercise!  Yay me!  ;)

It was an AMAZING experience!  I felt like a princess!  Everyone was so kind and made me feel so comfortable!  I was introduced as "Kristie, our cover model" and I could NOT stop smiling!  I have never had anyone pick out a wardrobe for me and it was interesting to see what they picked!  I had ladies helping me with my make-up and jewelry.  It was so much fun!  I felt so honored and so happy!  For just a few hours, I felt a million miles away from juggling meals, dishes, laundry, and homework.  From having sticky hands squeeze my legs and boogers being wiped on my shirt.  It was an awesome contrast and because I had some special time to make things happen for myself, when I came home, I appreciated the boogers and tears and chocolate kisses that much more!  It's all about the balance, right?!  

Here is the cover:  

This is what the section with the article looked like:

Not very good quality!  I need to take a better pic!

Here are some more pics from that day:

Remember when I did that 30 Day Video Challenge?  
This is the video where I talk about my Cover Model experience!  

Talk to you tomorrow!  

Love to You!

Monday, February 4, 2013

A Matter of Perspective

When I was a consultant I came across this story and instantly fell in love.  
It has such a powerful message!  
I used to read it to my groups and I always got choked up.  :) 

 I wanted to share it with you, too! 

Please enjoy The Frog Story and let me know what you think!  

The Frog Story

A group of frogs were hopping contentedly through the woods, 
going about their froggy business, 
when two of them fell into a deep pit. 

All of the other frogs gathered around the pit 
to see what could be done to help their companions. 

When they saw how deep the pit was, 
they agreed that it was hopeless 
and told the two frogs in the pit 
that they should prepare themselves for their fate, 
because they were as good as dead.

Unwilling to accept this terrible fate, 
the two frogs began to jump with all of their might! 

Some of the frogs shouted into the pit that it was hopeless, 
and that the two frogs wouldn't be in that situation 
if they had been more careful, 
more obedient to the froggy rules, and more responsible.

The other frogs continued sorrowfully shouting 
that they should save their energy and give up, 
since they were already as good as dead!

poor frogs!

The two frogs continued jumping with all their might, 
and after several hours of this, were quite weary. 

Finally, one of the frogs 
took heed to the calls of his fellow frogs. 

Exhausted, he quietly resolved himself to his fate, 
lay down at the bottom of the pit, and died.

The other frog continued to jump 
as hard as he could, 
although his body was wracked with pain 
and he was quite exhausted. 

Once again, his companions 
began yelling for him to accept his fate, 
stop the pain, and just die.  

The weary frog jumped harder and harder and, 
wonder of wonders, finally leaped so high 
that he sprang from the pit!

Amazed, the other frogs celebrated his freedom 
and then gathering around him asked, 
"Why did you continue jumping 
when we told you it was impossible?"

The astonished frog explained to them 
that he was deaf, 
and as he saw their gestures and shouting, 
he thought they were cheering him on!!!!! 

What he had perceived as encouragement
 inspired him to try harder and to succeed 
against all odds!!

This simple story contains a powerful lesson. 

Your encouraging words can lift someone up 
and help them make it through the day. 

Your destructive words can cause deep wounds; 
they may be the weapons that destroy 
someone's desire to continue trying

Be the light!  Be conscious of your words.

Speak kindness to others AND to yourself!!

Love to You!


I googled this story and found it at:

Thursday, October 4, 2012

Been Thinking Too Much...

So the last couple weeks have felt very heavy to me.  I finally had to sit with it for awhile 
and think about why I was feeling this way.  So many things are happening all around me. 

There's been lots of changes.  Allison transitioning into kindergarten 
has meant a transition for the whole family.  

It seems so ordinary because almost everyone goes through it, but if you pick it apart, 
there are so many changes!  A new schedule, changes in our sleeping, our eating, 
our interaction time, our down time, our shopping, our just about everything!  

Not to mention, the new attitude, the new behaviors, the new tests of my parenting!  Whew!  
I need a glass of wine just thinking about it!  :)  But everyone goes through it, right?  
So I just keep doing my best and moving right along.

Then there's the big election that's coming up.  I AM NOT political.  However, 
I want to be informed.  I want to be educated.  I want to stay in touch with what's going on 
in my country and I want to use my voice as an American and a woman to stand up 
for what I believe in.  So I've allowed a lot more time for articles, 
and tv time, and things that are helping me to be informed.  

Since I've exposed myself to this bombarding of so many negative messages, 
I've felt a little disconnected from the light.  And the truth.

I've never been able to see in black and white.  
To me, it's always a shade of gray. (or is it grey?  :)  
I actually prefer to see things in rainbow colors.  Makes more sense to me that 
things fall somewhere along the spectrum.  My brain can't rest in trying to believe that 
there's only one "right" way of doing and being.  It's just not true.  

There's exceptions to almost all of it because so much of it is opinion and perspective.  

My dream is that we could all start to focus on how we're connected, 
how we're the same, and the common goals we all share.  
Even if you're a die hard lefty or righty, could we give up trying to prove 
to the other how much they're wrong and how much we're right?  
Don't we have a common core that we could all focus on?

Oh, and have you heard of GMO's?  
I can't even get started on this one because it gets me so... so.... 
disturbed?  disgusted?  frustrated?  So many emotions!  
Isn't this what government is for?  
To protect it's people?

All this heaviness, all this seriousness, 
is starting to feel like too much burden.  

If I'm feeling this way, I know others must be too!  
Are you feeling this way?  

Being educated, being informed, and being called to take action is one thing.  
Feeling anxiety, worry, overwhelm, and fear is when you know 
you've shifted away from the truth.  

So it's time to lighten up!  

Take a break!  Have some fun!  Have a drink!  Blow something off!  

Do something spontaneous!  Or crazy!  Or both!!!  

Call an old friend!  Take a dance class!  Take an art class!  

Go buy a new book!  Try on some new clothes!  

Go for a walk!  Ride your bike!  Do some YOGA!!!  

Laugh with friends!  Enjoy your family!  Go for a drive!  Go to the beach!  

Sit in the park.  Listen to the sound of life all around you!

Let go of the clutter!  Connect to the stillness.  Trust in yourself!  Trust in mankind.

Restore your faith.  Remember your truth.  Allow peace to envelope you.

~HDR Photography of Doyle Lake, Midforest Lodge - Michigan

Let it all FALL AWAY!!!!!!  Isn't that what fall is for?  
To shed the exterior, get to the core, and prepare for new life?

Ahhhh.....I'm feeling better already!

Love to You!